Thoughts

Sometimes, You just don’t know the true weight of what you’re carrying until the day you feel its release.

Mental health is a serious matter of concern in today’s world as people are taking it more and more seriously. However, mental illness is still treated with a lot of taboo because people who suffer from depression, anxiety, and other mental illnesses are still told that it’s all in their head.

Depression is an ugly monster and brings with it low self-esteem and self-loathing, not to mention the constant self-consciousness that follows you everywhere. Unfortunately, you can’t really see it but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.

Working people like me suffer a lot with this. Every time I have to work in the office as normal people do. And if I do something unusual, I am not using my depression as an excuse. Trust me I’d given anything to function “normally” on day to day basis.

Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It’s the fear of failure but no urge to be productive. It’s wanting friends but hates socializing. It’s wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It’s caring about every damn thing the caring about nothing. It’s feeling of everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.

Sometimes I wonder if I ever be happy with myself. I worry that if I can’t be happy with myself, then nobody will ever be happy with me and that just makes me even more paranoid. It is a Cycle, Insecurity, Unconfidence, And Diffidence.

For people who are depressed, this critical inner voice can have a powerful and destructive influence on their state of mind. It may be feeding them a distorted commentary on their lives: You are too fat to leave the house. You are so stupid. No one will ever love you. You aren’t capable of being happy. You will never succeed at anything. The critical inner voice may then persuade you to act in destructive ways: Just be by yourself; no one wants to see you. Have another piece of cake; it will make you feel better. You shouldn’t even try for that job; you’ll never get it. Finally, once you’ve listened to its directives, the critical inner voice will attack you for your actions: You are such a loser, staying home alone on a Saturday. You messed up your diet again. What is wrong with you? You’ll never get a decent job. You’re so lazy.

The real reasons for depression and anxiety can be googled and read from any resource. But what the person actually needs who are suffering from this is not mentioned anywhere.

Very few people have the sensitivity in them to deal with a person suffering from depression and actually make them feel better.

The only thing a person with depression needs is your empathy, not your diagnosis. Try to understand the blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness they are going through. If you know someone who is depressed please resolve never to ask them why.

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